Today started out bad, and just got worse. First off I had to do this FCAT test, which is a stupid standardized test that we have to do in Florida. Basically an hour and a half of filling in bubbles. It was boring as hell, and I finished within like the first 30 minutes. Afterwards I just had to sit there. I wasn't allowed to read or work on schoolwork or anything.

Then, later on in my Demon Math Class From Hell which I have been trying desperately to raise my grade in, I got back a test that I had been really nervous about. I got a 60%. And it made me so sad and frustrated that I actually cried a little bit in class. I really hope no one noticed because it was embarrassing as hell. I hate that I'm such a weak person. I can't ever be strong; I just break down in front of everyone whenever something bad happens.

To make things even worse, one of my closest friends told me that she is feeling close to suicide. I have no idea what to do to help.